....HoPeFuL....

Sunday, June 21, 2009

well i have a little flicker of light...

and that is exaclty what i will call it...."the light" inspired by the common song...

this "light", had shed a little warmth on my day. things were a little cloudy, but this "light" is starting to break thru....but there are so many questions that still remain...

is this light fake? i mean if i clear the clouds will i look up to find a lightbuld instead of the sun? and will the light stay? i mean it could retreat to where is came from leaving things cloudy and grey...yet again. i mean i have had some type of similare "light" in the past...and now look what happend....that left more of a mark than i could have ever thought....so whats next?

that is the big question...what is next...do i keep trying to bring the light in, so it can be stronger? or do i let it just run its course and eventually move on? thats what im so worried about right now...im just so ready now. so ready more than ever and i just want that chance. with someone that is worth it and will aprreciate me and what im about...i know i have to be patient but it is hard...and how long am i supose to wait? so many questions and no answers....YET....only time will tell...

...............until next time.............

.....BlAh....

Friday, June 19, 2009

thats how i feel right now

taking summer classes....trying to do yet again what i was doing last summer. studying for the MCATS and trying t find things to do after my life at Truman. i am def READY to move on and go somewhere else.

i just feel stuck sometime b/c i have no plans yet. but i guess i dont have a choice. i just have to keep trying and moving forwerd. thats all i can do. and pray for the best.

i know that i am tired of being in kirksville but i have no where else to go really...LoL...so i dont know what else to yearn for...well i take that back...i cant wait to be able to actually say that im in med school and not that i am applying or trying to take the MCAT...*sigh*...i just want to move in a different direction...

but we will see...and i def will keep you posted! :)

..............until next time..............

...TuEsDaY...

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

well today has been ok

got up...worked out...now i am at work covering for someone...cant wait to get this check!!! it will be so so so so so so so nice

had a good weekend. had a friends come visit. it was really nice. i really enjoyed it...nothing else to say...LoL hope we can meet up again...

work it work...school is school....nothing else to do or say at this point...

.............until next time..............

...YoGa...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

...YoGa...

today was another "year of the first" for me
...i went to my first yoga class....i already feel my body getting sore...LoL
i cant wait to go tomorrow...it was alot of fun!!

..........until next time..............

....DeCiSiOnS....

Monday, May 18, 2009

right now i feel like im at a cross roads. i dont really know what to do with my life...but i know that i need to move forwerd. do something to better my life and to just move on to the next step. the only thing that sux about it is that i am doing this alone...no one to really share this with but my blog...LoL...

i mean my family didnt even come to my graduation...so cant really expect them to understand...

just want things to work out how i see them. but as i have already discovered that will be put on hold for a while...

talked to josias today...and OMG he is n law school! i did not know that. he suggested that i "take a vaction" to where he is...LoL...i mean why not...i have never been to washington...then i saw the ticket prices....in order for me to go out there i will need more than the random once a month conversations with him....LoL...

i keep praying and practicing on being patient....no reward yet so i guess i have no other choice than to be patient and to keep waiting.

the good lord has not pointed mein the wrong direction yet so hopefully he will continue to work his magic and steer me in the right direction

summer has started....i have been out of school for a week...as an official graduate and what have i done? nothing!! LoL i have moved out of my home (*tear* yes right now i am literally homeless until june 1st until i can move into my new place...) and i have managed to work everyday. the money will def be nice since i have a car payment now...

but this summer i def want to still make/save up $ and just do what i can to enjoy this "cushion year" to get my plans together and just figure out what to do next...

well gotta get back to work...i swear sometime these nurses just work my last nerves!!

..................until next time.................

....GrAdUaTiOn....

Sunday, May 17, 2009

May 9th, 2009 at 2:00 pm...stokes stadium....Truman State University....






I DID IT...FINALLY....LoL

....U jUsT dO u & ImMa dO mE....pt2

Monday, April 27, 2009

all i can do is pray...

made a long huge post for this title...i made it private...too graphic and i drop alot of names and details about events that just happened that i just cant realease to the internet world...not yet at least....LoL

.............until next time...........

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

.....I LOVE tUeSdAyS.....

....ThE cItY tHaT nEvEr SlEePs...

Sunday, April 19, 2009

well i am finally back in the swing of things after our new york trip...how was it? AWSOME! i had so much fun. we are going to try to go back in August. to be honest the city was not bad. even tho i have a slight phobia of big places with alot of ppl it was actually not that bad and pretty tolerable. we learned the subway system and rode the bus...it was really fun. we walked tooo much. not to mention that i forgot my jacket and had to walk around freezing!!! but we still had fun. i would love to visit there more often. im not sure if i could handle living there but it def would be fun to go back.

school is coming to an end. we move into our new place in june...i graduate in a few weeks :)

never tought this day would come but it did! so i am really happy abotu that.

jennifer decided to go t dartmouth which i am excited about. i think she will have alot of fun. i wish she wasnt going so far away but she wanetd to get away and she wanted to go ivy league...so what can you say?

everything else is still good. me and britney are still not talking....and to be honest i dont care. that may sound bad or mean but i dont know what else to say to her. she cant even say sorry for what she has done...and if she cant even do that then we have no biznes talking. i mean i will conduct chapter how itneeds to go but i am done trying to go above and beyond what is needed to cater to her. im DONE and i am tired....time for a new day...a new age...to start things off right and the way that i want them to be.

here are my future plans so far:

may 9th-graduate

may 15- move out of old house :(

may 22-25-go to memphis with my ship

may 25-june2- go home

june 3rd- b in chicago for ashley's graduation

june 5th- come back and move into the new place.

rest of the summer...summer school and work

august- go back to NYC :)

school starts again....

so im am happy that i actually have something to look 4werd too....makes things so much more enjoyable to be able to plan and be excited about...kinda like bball season...LoL

...............until next time................

....NeW yOrK nEw YoRk...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

i leave tomorrow for new york!!!! me danielle, toya will be heading across contry for a fun filled weekend...please look for the pix (prob post them on facebook :) ) but im excited...so you should b too...and of course i am gonna take lots and lots of pix!!! LoL

......until next time......