...mInD gAmEs....

Sunday, March 22, 2009

look at the picture...do you ever feel that way? i know that i do at least once a week.
just a sever vexation by someone around me...it makes me want to get away...def get away from here...*sigh*...sumtime i just want to go somewhere but have no where to go or no one to go to. its just hard...i just want to feel like i finally fit and belong somewhere. i mean iam here but for what...for school..to pay bills...but for what else? what is next? i just dont know what to do or think sometimes. and yes its bad but i am seriously getting this "f**k it" attitude....people just act a certain way and to be honest i would not deal with it so i just push it away. i look at people that i have to deal with everyday and i wonder how do they get that way. why do they live like that or want to be that way? why do they let the little things control their life like it does? well im done with trying to please people. its all about me now. im tired of going out ofmy way to do something nice or to just cater to people in general just to get in return nothing or less than that...or even worse just flat out disrespected. so overall i guess i just cant wait until the next chapter of my life unfolds...where ever that is....

i bought my graduation invitations the other day :) so im almost done....im excited but at the same time i dont know what else to do. just sit around and wait i guess...i dont feel that there is much that i can do right now or if there is i cant find it...im just lost right now i guess. guess the only thing that i can do is pray and try to let things unwind on their own.

.....until next time....