Thursday, May 26, 2011
well it is finally here!!!
being welcomed by mother natures furry...bring on the heat, the humidity, the sun, and the fun!
this time of year (minus the thunder storms and most recent influx of awful tornado's) is my favorite time of year! This time of year i have noticed i am way more motivated...my overall mood and demeanour is high and i enjoy life so much more. could it be because of the warmth and continuous sunshine? maybe...but all i know is that i LOVE it!
Over the past few weeks, i have had to explain my life goals to several people who have been trying to figure out my life (don't worry they are not the only ppl trying to figure it out...i am constantly trying to figure my life out). These people consist with different people in the hospital that i work with...doctors that i see regularly and who spark up small conversations in the elevators....or distant family members/friends who randomly send me facebook messages. Each time i give them the generic "i am in graduate school currently doing research but later hope to enter and finish medical school" speech.
But what hit me today was what if i don't go to medical school?
OK first i want to make a point that i am 99% positive that sooner or later (hopefully sooner rather than later) i will get into medical school and become a doctor. But the doubt is still alive and i see it. I have worked so hard during my whole academic career to mold my learning's around the medical field. I have dreamed of nothing but wearing the white coat and having "M.D." or "D.O." attached the end of my name. To have a Fancy stethoscope and to obsess over my patients charts. I know life does not always deal you the hand that you are hoping and wishing for, but i do not and cant see myself doing anything else for the rest of my life.
Since i have graduated from college i have seriously done some soul searching and looking to see if it what i really want and if it what i really want to do...for the rest of my life...and it is. i have looked into other careers and i cant see myself doing anything else (other than being a rock star but i defiantly cant sing and i cant play the guitar or drums).
I find comfort in know exactly what i want to do with my life and what direction i am trying to work towards. i meet so many college graduates and i still have quite a few friends who are just unsure of what direction they want to take in their life. They are hoping from job to job...some still living with their parents...some got distracted by love which lead to marriage and a family which them led them to settle for any job rather than their ideal or dream job. i may not be sure about a lot of things that go on in my life but i am sure that one day everyone will have to address me by "Doctor"
I have truly learned what it means when someone says "if you don't work hard for what you want you truly wont appreciate it"...this saying has held up for me in many different cases. And i know it will hold true once again when i finally accomplish my biggest goal in life...saving lives one person at a time...one day at a time...and dedicating my life to server other people to overall change their lives and make it better.