...HuMp DaY....

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

this pic has no meaning of no influence on how i feel, i juat saw it and it caught my attention. the colors and the overall look of this youg lady...

well today was a ok day...had classes...i kept waking up for some reason last night...not sure why...i feel like i got some sleep but i was just annoyed that i kept waking up every few hours. it took me like 5 min to fall back asleep, but i just kept waking up every 2 ours on the dot...3:15, 5:15, 7:15....LoL...guess i just needed to wake up to realize i was in my own bed at home alone...

school is ok...our week is next week...applied for a 2nd job today...justneed something else to do this summer so i know that i am making some kind of money to pay bills and to save up just a little bit...since my hours at the hospital got cut i have to make up for it somewhere...

i had some thoughts today...they just came to me...why do inmiss douglas so much? i mean my biggest turn off for a guy is when they disappoint me and let me down...and heout of everyone did that to the extent of extreme pain for me...so why do i keep yearning for him? i dont need to...actually as of now i dont want to. he gave up on me and for what? and soon after that is madly in love again? yea im sorry i dont think that is huminly possible...so im going to STOP wasting my time and thoughts on him...period...time to move on. i need to open my eyes to the people that god put in my life that are around me right now.

last night i got to go out to eat with brandon...and for the first time he paid!! LoL
it was kool, i mean with him i have so many mixed thoughts...its to a point where i dont really even care n e moreand that is not good. i mean im not saying that i dont care about him in general i just dont care about the "state of being" between us...i mean i dont even want to think aboutit. im tired of thinking about it and trying to figure it out....so F it! LoL

well those are my thoughts for now....stay tuned

................until next time..............