....HeArT dAy....

Sunday, February 1, 2009

heart day....the one day of the year that in a sense i dread to see come...

i mean yes guys have given me gifts, but i have yet to have someone just make that day all about me...*sigh* maybe someday.i have been trying to decide if i want to do something for him for heart day. i mean do the whole reversal thing...cook dinner...candles...the whole thing....but then i question myself and ask why would i do something like that for someone who i wont say that he dosnt appreciate it, but what impression will it make. i mean i asked him to be my valentine and he freaked out...so i just do not know how he would feel if i tried to do something like that for him...i honestly just do not know.

which makes me not want to do anything at all...i dontk now, it is something that i keep going back and forth with in my mind.

this upcomming weekend is the bball tourney!! i am super excited. i am ready to hoop and beat some people! i have quite a few ppl coming to see me play so i am very excited about getting to see them. i wish that he could go to see me, but i know that they have a game next weekend as well so i know that he wont be able to. i wonder if he will be as enthusiastic about my games as i am about his games....guess we will see. this past week we have spent so much time together, partly b/c of his whole car situation...but he finally got it taken care of. i didnt mind helping him at all...but he did mess up 2 naps that i was trying to take...LoL...

i honestly miss home...i guess i miss the comfort of home...the places, my friends and family...the food! (the most important part! LoL)

since i have been back i just have not really been in the mood to go out and party. i mean i will drink a little and get a little buzz but then i just get tired and want to go to bed...LoL...

and the greek parties dont even really get started until almost 1 so by that time i am really tired or i have to go to bed early b/c i have to be at work super early in the morning. so i just feel old...i mean maybe the party scene in kville has lost its shine for me...i ask aubrie to go out with me but sometimes she gets the same way...i guess that means we are really getting old...LoL

last night i drank and even got all dressed up...but by the time 1230 got here i was sooo tired all iwanted to do was make it home and go to bed! yes i took a little cat nap during the day, but i still was suoer tired not to mention i had to be at work super early so i just wanted to try to get some sleep. oh and erica and some random gay guy busted in my room at 3am...that was annoying...i need to start locking my door. usually if he comes over i lock the door...but i need to do it more often esp when im at home trying to sleep.

i found a new place to live for next year. i did indeed pray abot it. i asked the lord to either bless me with finding a place of my taste or that will be a sign for me to look to get out of kirksville....and i found one! after looking all day on my off day on thursday, i found a BRAND NEW, 2 car garage...my own bathroom...3 bedroom...kitchen with dishwasher and washer and dryer...living room...hardwood floors...the works! for $300 a month!!!! thats on $75 more than what i pay now but everything will be new and just reflect the kind of style that i like...i am really excited and want to start a countdown to when i can move out of the place we are in now. i mean the place we r n now is not that bad, i just have been there 3 years and we dont have central ac/heat and its just an old house and i am ready for a change and for something new :) i will be sure to post pictures

well im gonna start some homework. i am at work and i just got done eating breakfast, had a kinda busy morning. im gonna try to do some homework since i did NONE yesterday...

.................until next time....................