...LoOkInG fOr LoVe In AlL tHe WrOnG PlAcEs...

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I have been on the same journey for the past few years...more so the past few months...and trying even harder to achieve it in the past few weeks.

I have been on a journey of Self Love and trying not only to figure out my love life but my real life as well.

As i was showering after a mind blowing workout (yes it was indeed mind blowing...my hamstrings and quads are thanking me for it today) i heard a random lyric to a random song that played on my ipod.

..."She is looking for love in all the wrong Places"...

This line def rang in my ears...and to my surprise when i woke up this morning at 4AM this line was playing over and over again in my head.



i know that i have been trying actively to put myself out there and to meet new guys (hoping that the next one will be better than the last).  But is it really paying off? i mean yea i have met some people...and things defiantly did not end up as expected...so what is a girl to do?

...Do i keep putting myself out there?...

...Or do i just give up and wait patiently for something else?...

 

Well for my friends that know me the best they could tell you that i am not very good at waiting "patiently" especially to things that i am very adamant about getting...if i want something i am proactive and i go get it. That has come with everything in life...my school...my current "career"...anything. but Love is the only thing i have not been successful with.

I have talked to several people and they said it will happen when you least expect it...but the problem is i am always expecting it. With each guy that i meet and start to get to know i go through a mental check list...of things i like and dislike...things that work and things that don't....and when things are looking up and in my mind things are going good...that is when things turn around and go in a different direction.

Love is defiantly a game and right now i know that i am losing big time....

*sigh* well at least i can put my focus onto other more important things.

...starting to study for the MCAT (again... :-/  )...

...traveling and spending time with the ppl most important to me (which i have been doing a good job at)

...and doing the things i love most...

so hopefully i can start to put my attention into other things to occupy my mind!