...TuEsDaY...

Saturday, June 26, 2010

This is a littel poem i came up with on the fly about something i do each week with a big group of friends. some of my friends have moved away and it makes me sad that i dont get to see them or share this time with them anymore. But i have these pictures and memories and now this poem i would like to share...it is a little silly but it was really hard to come up with some of the things that i wanted to incorpotate...LoL

i would like to share with you what happens on tuesday...usually every week

me and a group of my friends meet up for a little drink

well we usually start with just one or two

but after a while we lose count and have more than a few

for a dollar a drink you cant help but get three or four

but we also must order food to eat so we dont crawl out the door

we all have good conversation and make jokes

but the best part is chugging a margarita while trying not to choke

we have our own special section in the back

so no one has to question where we will be at

this is a tuesday tradition for me and my friends

i am so sad when the day comes that it has to end

a few people already are missing from our group each week

so we make a toast to them and try not to weep

we keep in our hearts and mind all the good times we had

and we all try to keep a smile on our faces to keep from being sad

for only a few dollars who knew you could have so much fun!!!

as soon as you wake up on tuesday morning you know what is to be done

later that day we knew all of our paths would cross

so we could meet at La Pachanga and yell "UNO MAS!!!"

to all my friends both old a new.

i will always love and miss you!!!

...ThE tRuTh...

Friday, June 25, 2010

well the truth hurts....sometimes it really does. but i would honestly rather people tell me the truth than try to sugar coat things. i feel that alot of things in my life would have been way better off is someone just did not lie to me...but that is the human instinct i guess. maybe that is why my friends are my friends. i am very blunt and honest. now i know when to back off and just stay quiet but at the same time i know when to chime in and let my opinion be heard.

there is a fine line between telling the truth and simply just lying. and i think some people lie to just strive for the attention. why lie? why not just tell it how it is? or just not say anything at all? those questions may never be answered...but i guess it is done for the affect one can get after the tale has been told.

well this is week 3 of my INTENSE work out. right now i am going 6 days a week (sunday is my off day but we still have softball games...which is pretty low key) one day of the 6 is a light day with alot of stretching. i am doing ALOT of cardio. do my 30-45 min routine, then hop on the machine for 20-30 depending on how much time i have left b4 i gotta get to work or research and on how tired i am that day. and i have been lifitng with the arms this week.

it def has been hard but i feel great!! i can def start to see small changes in my body (not that i was super over weight or anything) but the definition and tone is def. coming to my arms and legs. just wanting to get to a certain level. 6 more weeks left of this program and i cant wait to see the results at the end!!! i honestly feel good about it each day. yes i am tired some days and dont want to hit the gym, but after i get done i feel so much better and feel like i have accomplished so much already. i just have to keep the motivation and i can make it through the next six weeks. i have only missed one day (and it was due to the lack of facilities to use) but i have been on top of it. and the fact that i put in a little extra after my routine helps out so much. i am super excited to reach the end and feel good about what i have achieved :)

...HhHhHhHmMmMmMmmm...

Thursday, June 24, 2010

today is i would like to share thoughts about things that happen everyday that make you go...HHHhhhmmmmm....

LIke when you see someone do something out of character....
or you see something that you def cant possible thing that it is real....
or a friend says or does someting that you just cant belive....

there have been alot of events latly that make me say hmmmmmm.
instaed of getting angry...cursing...or just getting annoyed, i try to say hhhhhmmmm and go about my day. and i must say. it is great! i feel like i enjoy the day so much more. not to worry about something someone else did...or have to get mad b/c someone purposly tried to push my buttons....

but sometimes it i just harder to actually walk away and say hhhhmmmm
i pray each day for more patients and humbleness so that i can just take certain situations with a grain of salt. some things that happen and some things that ppl do i just cant control. but i can control how i feel and react to certain situations. and that i am greatful for. i love to wear a smile on my face and just take in all the blessings that i get each day.

its june...i need to get my butt in gear!!! i have alot i need to get done! i just need to get up and do it!!!

................until next time..............

...EaRgAsM....

Monday, June 21, 2010

eargasm....i sw this word when i was reading some things on the internet. it just stuck with me.
and it made me think what give me an eargasm...goos music....a soothing voice...positive things being said by the people around me...

i would def have to put my vote on some good music.
i love to put my ipod on shuffle (i have about 5,000 songs on my ipod) and just see what song pops up. and when a good song comes on...you know the song that puts a smile on your face...the song that takes you back to a certain moment that reminds you of a place or of someone...the song that you just know every word and beat...the song that makes your heart smile....that to me is a eargasm.

i would say that my ears are def. satisfied once a day...if not more.
working out with my ipod is a must. i know that i have just went home and not completed a workout simply b/c i did not have something to listen to. it keeps me motivated...it keeps me going.

without music...without eargasms....my days would be full of dullness and quiet.
i do thank god each day for the blessings of being able to hear/see and be apart of all the wonderful things that he has put around me.

....so i ask you...what gives you a eargasm?

...............until next time........

..TrAdE oFf...

Saturday, June 12, 2010

ok...now i know this is my 3rd post for today (i guess i had alot on my mind!!)
but i was still thinking....what is the trade off

the trade off in relationships...
the trade off at work...
the trade off with your friends....
the trade off in life....

i mean life is always about the comprimise right? .....or is it.....



i feel that some people comprise and give up more that the other....is that fair....
no its not, but that is how it is.WIth that being said i know that i have personally comprimised alot in my life...with my friends...family....relationships....
and in most cases i was the one giving back the most...only to get back only a fraction of what i put in.
and it just leaves you to ask....but why....
the answer.....i......i.....i honestly dont know.....



i feel that when i meet someone that i truly like. i want to make them happy. i want them to enjoy being around me...and in return i would hope that they would do the same. but in most recent cases i try...i give...i try...i give...i try....i give....and then eventually i may at some point get a little back.....



lets look at a sexual relationship...i fell that sometimes a guy may offer things emotionally....monetary.....or even random things to get what he wants.....sex....and the girl gives and gives to get what she wants.....the attention?  the possible thought of  "us"....the satisfaction of knowing they have someone but only for certain reasons/times....BUT WHY...porque.....



and for that answer i have....
STOP
and that is exactly what i am doing....
yes i hate to say that previous situations may have taken away from the next guy....but it is now time to look after me....LOOK AFTER YOURSELF....



i like to live and learn from what i have done in the past...or what i have seen other people do...and fail....and it is a good rule to follow.
Is it too much to ask for a guy to actually show interest....and him pursue me?
is it too much to ask for the guy to make all the moves....or actually text or call me....(when he says he will)
is it too much to ask that i go out on a real date...or even not be your "little secret"
or is it too much to ask for a guy who is done with the games and wants a good girl to be with....
...........relationship.......?


there are alot of questions in this world....i know that all of them will not be answered....but i will continue to seek the truth....or at least seek someone who is true....to themselves....and most importantly....to me....


....................until next time...............

...InSpIrAtIoN...

on my endevour to find "sumeone"..."anyone" worth my time/compasion/love/...etc....i found this blog post...
it is sad that so many women out there are having trouble finding a good guy. i could relate so much to this post b/c that is exactly what happens to me....ALL THE TIME...i am just ready to not be treated that way and to just find the perfect fit for me. Altho it is sad, i do find comfort that so many women/girls out there are going thru the same issues/problem i am with men/boys (lets face it...even tho the should be men their actions lead me to call them boys...) i just remain hopefull...and know that GoD had made someone for me...i just have to be patient and i will find him....eventually...(hopefully sooner than later...LoL)



**i found this on another bloggers site....http://steviwonderwoman.blogspot.com/2010/06/miss-me-shift-me-kiss-me.html


" I'm so tired of being swept off my feet with baseball bats .



they often times break my ankles and lack the tenderness of brooms .


instead, I'm left kneeling in submission & out of things to give .






I'm so tired of falling in love and landing on my face .


I'd rather face the possibility that 'he' would catch me before i slam into the concrete .


it's not like i fall intentionally .


nope .


they pull the magic carpet from beneath my feet when things get a little dusty .


but what love is orderly ...always ? I don't need OCD love . things inevitably get messy .






I'm so tired of the line, "girls mature faster than boys" . maturity is only a pinch of intelligence & a cup of accountability . should i pour these ingredients in his morning coffee ?


i mean, his sippy cup ?






I'm so tired of lending my ears to vent to, my shoulder to cry on, and my hand to help up and if that isn't enough ... being expected to give my vagina too .


I'd give away my embraces like Halloween candy . I'd share my undying support like recess snacks . I'd lend my loyalty as freely as a borrowed pencil ... if it meant that i would simply get it in return .






my mother told me, "Stevi, don't get discouraged by being a good girl . Guys like the fast girls now ... but they'll marry girls like you ."


can you repeat that ?


marriage is the only time when i can expect honesty, love & respect ?


should i anticipate lying, selfishness, insincerity and disrespect in the meantime ?


I'm no ones damn floor mat . I'm no ones 'trial run' . they can keep the 'game' that insults my intelligence . they can keep the half-assed, lazy attempts at dating me . they can keep the 'Tug-O-Stevi', i want you when it's convenient. . .



they can keep their bullshit .





I'M NINETEEN. i dont need a husband; i need real .  "

 
 
 
.......until next time....

...InSaNiTy...

well this past week has definatly been INSANITY...in every sense of the word...

first, i got to work with the research team at AT Still....got to CUT THE HEAD OFF OF A RAT! LoL
it is for research! i promise. and he felt no pain. it was really kool...and i am excited about all of the things that i will get to do this summer with this lab!

Well i started INSANITY....OMG it is amazing. it is hard and it pushes me. It is exaclty what i was looking for in a work out. something challenging and something to get me out of the rut that i am in physically. i have been doing it a week and i def feel a difference. my core is sore...along with my calfs...and upper legs...and back...LoL
its not like when i lift weights. it way more than that. i am really excited about what direction i will go in when i get closer to completing the program. it is suppose to last for 60 day...and i have completed one week....6 more weeks to go! i will keep you updated :) The hardest part is eating! well i know that i eat enough, it is just eating the right things and not having too much with my portion sizes. It is a hard skill to master...but i am def getting better at it. i have a menu and try to eat every 2-3 hours. i give myself 12 hours to eat (eat from 8am to 8 pm....or 9 am to 9pm.) i have 5 meals a day (each meal with 200-400 calories) i serioulsy did not think it would be enough but it is. if i still feel a little hungry after my meal i supplament it with veggies or fruit. so its good that i am able to learn this now and master this now before school starts again and things get hectic.


i went to go see brandon on monday...and i seriously wanted to cry....but he is optamistic and getting thru it...


jennifer left for brazil yeaterday. i am worried about her but i know she will be ok. it will just suck b/c i wont be able to talk to her like i usually could. but it will def take some getting use to. but i know that she will have a great time and i am excited to see pictures and to have her tellme what she learned.



its official...im a ebay junkie...LoL i have gotten 5 things off of ebay this month!!! its only june 12th!!! i def need to slow down! and i am. now i have the things that i wanted so i really dont need to buy anything else...for now....LoL


......until next time.....

...DiD yOu KnOw...

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

You know the characters, but you might not know their full names. Store these away for future trivia nights. (by Jason English - June 8, 2010 - 1:33 PM )

1. Did you know the Comic Book Guy on The Simpsons has a name? It’s Jeff Albertson. But that wasn’t the decision of creator Matt Groening. “I was out of the room when [the writers] named him,” he told MTV in 2007. “In my mind, ‘Louis Lane’ was his name, and he was obsessed and tormented by Lois Lane.”


2. Barbie’s full name is Barbara Millicent Roberts. (Ken’s last name is Carson.)


3. Cap’n Crunch’s full name is Captain Horatio Magellan Crunch


4. Snuffleupagus has a first name—Aloysius.


5. In the Peanuts comic strip, Peppermint Patty’s real name is Patricia Reichardt.


6. The Wizard of Oz rolls off the tongue a lot easier than his full name, Oscar Zoroaster Phadrig Isaac Norman Henkel Emmannuel Ambroise Diggs. From Frank Baum’s Dorothy And the Wizard in Oz:
“It was a dreadfully long name to weigh down a poor innocent child, and one of the hardest lessons I ever learned was to remember my own name. When I grew up I just called myself O.Z., because the other initials were P-I-N-H-E-A-D; and that spelled ‘pinhead,’ which was a reflection on my intelligence.”


7. Mr. Clean has a seldom-used first name—”Veritably.” The name came from a “Give Mr. Clean a First Name” promotion in 1962.


8. In a deleted scene in the 2006 Curious George movie, The Man With the Yellow Hat’s name was revealed as Ted Shackleford. (Since the scene was deleted, perhaps this doesn’t count.)


9. The real name of Monopoly mascot Rich Uncle Pennybags is Milburn Pennybags.


10. The policeman in Monopoly has a name, too. You can thank Officer Edgar Mallory the next time he sends you to jail.


11. On Night Court, Nostradamus Shannon was better known as Bull.


12. On Entourage, Turtle’s real name is Salvatore Assante.


13. Sesame Street’s resident game show host Guy Smiley was using a pseudonym all these years. He was born Bernie Liederkrantz.


14. The Michelin Man’s name is Bibendum.


15. On Gilligan’s Island, Jonas Grumby was simply called The Skipper.


16. Staying on Gilligan’s Island, The Professor was Roy Hinkley.


17. The unkempt Shaggy of Scooby-Doo fame has a rather proper real name—Norville Rogers.


18. The Pillsbury Doughboy’s name is Poppin’ Fresh. He has a wife, Poppie Fresh, and two kids, Popper and Bun Bun.


19. The patient in the classic game Operation is Cavity Sam.


20. The true identity of The Lone Ranger was John Reid.


21 & 22. OK, these last two aren’t fictional, but just in case it comes up, Bono was born Paul David Hewson, and The Edge’s name is David Howell Evans.

...YoU aRe BeAuTiFuL...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

— Proverbs 27:15-16 —
A quarrelsome wife is like a constant dripping on a rainy day;restraining her is like restraining the wind or grasping oil with the hand.
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Quarrelsome nagging, a steady stream of unwanted advice, is a form of torture. People nag because they think they're not getting through, but nagging hinders communication more than it helps. When tempted to engage in this destructive habit, stop and examine your motives. Are you more concerned about yourself — getting your way, being right — than about the person you are pretending to help? If you are truly concerned about other people, think of a more effective way to get through to them. Surprise them with words of patience and love, and see what happens. I feel like with children (or child like roomies) how else are you suppose to get a point across. i nicely ask....i hint at things...and that clearly does not get the point across. i have "nagged" an it has worked. but i guess ineed to find a better, more efficent way to solve problems. maybe a creative idea will pop in my head...we shall see....

Today's verse is very good

i find myself "nagging" people someties (esp mike or erica). it seems alot of the stuff they do they know they shouldnt do it...and they do not fix the problem until i "nag" them. but then a few weeks later they soon forget again and the cylce begins again....*sigh*...LOL its like having children...but we def hav good times...

last night was a blast! i had to work at the bar last night (the close shift :-/) the only reason i dont like to work the close shift on the weekends is b/c i have to wake up early the next morning (@ like 530 am after getting off at like 2:30 am...) to go to work at the hospital. but last night was alot of fun

in the past 24 hours i have had 2 people (that i did not know) that i was a beautiful person. and that felt amazing. to just have someone notice me...i guess i have been so use to attracting the wrong attention or not getting any attention at all that i just forgot how it feels to have someone look at you and just appreciate you. and last night i met a black cowboy..,.LoL...ya i know! that is what i said. but it was kool. he is in town working (with other cowboys from texas!!! )and he is actually pretty good looking...not sure of the age...but there is some thought he may be a little too old for my liking...but who knows...we shall see if he ever calls. i did the "here is my #...if you want to hang out YOU call me" kinda thing. i am not gonna chase any guy...EVER. i will flirt and gladly show interest, but i just cant put in all the effort. it should be the other way around. and its more fun that way. and if he dosnt call...no biggie....no prob.

and to my suprise another guy asked for my number. he was there with a band (and im not gonna lie the bands we AWFUL!!! LoL). but you could tell he had been working up the nerve for sumtime and clearly had an eye for me. so why not. like i said...if they dont call...then not my problem. just move and and wait for the next one.

to be told you are beautiful...is a great feeling. it helps the most when you arnt feeling the best about yourself or you have just had a bad day. i know that the past few months i have been unahppy with different aspects of my life but i am truthfully happy. i have accomplished so much and i have so much to look forwerd to. i am very blessed and happy to be in the position i am in now. things could be so much worse, but the Lord has blessed me with so much more. i cant wait to see what he has planned for in the future.

i hope that ever girl/woman in the world is told that they are beautiful at least once in their lifetime. it truly is a great feeling. i hope it is done with good intention and not to lure them to do something they are tricked into. falling in love is a wonderful thing...and i cant wait until i find that again....

.....until next time.....