...HoMe SwEeT hOmE...

Friday, August 21, 2009

some people say that your home is where your heart is....i think it is where you store all of your stuff....LoL

and yes i have realized that i have ALOT of stuff. i have already thrown away so much while packing not to mention the piles of stuff i am throwing away while unpacking...i dont even know where i got most of this stuff from! i guess over the years it just builds up. but it is mine and i have no other home, so with me it shall remain.

we finally got the kitchen, living room, bathroom done! got the decorations up, got the furniture and Dish network set up...washed all the dishes and pots and stuff...now im washing clothes, and trying to empty the last few boxes that i have. i finally got all of my clothes boxes empty and i have a huge pile to wash and another pile that i need to hang up ( no worries i had a pile of clothes that i need to take to goodwill) but it has been going good. the kitchen (my kitchen! LoL) is great! we have an island, dish washers, and it i just perfect. exactly whati need!

my room is big, huge cloest, and MY OWN BATHROOM!!! its about time! something iwas in dire need of. i just get weird about my bathroom! it will ALWAYS be clean, and i will have no shame or have to make excuses b/c my roomies didnt want to pick up after themselves. im excited to finally be at home even after all of the problems with our landlord....but i guess it was kinda worth it....

well that is my day in a nutshell....

...............until next time................

...AfTeRmAtH...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

a friend once told me that New York city is the city that cultivates and encourages the "hustling" dream....

i am not too sure how i feel about that. not to knock it or anything, i have a few friends who have jobs where their whole salary comes from their commission...which is good i supose...until you hit that dry spell and dont know when to expect your next check, or you are use to living a lifestyle, but when your income is cut and you dont know how long, what do you do then? i mean i know that "hustling" is def NOT the job for me. i like to know when and where i am getting my money. i like knowing how hard i need to work to get what i want. i guess its just a prefernce of choice. possible how you are raised? i know that i was introduced to this lifestyle until my late teens. yes this is partially b/c my mom did a great job at keeping us away from it, but i guess i just dont quite understand why someone wouldwant to live that way. to each his own right?

but in new york, we saw the cream of the crop on the streets. from selling handbags, wallets, watches, movies, clothes, you name it, they have it...packed in their stand as they stand there all day in all types of weather to try to sale their items to make ends meet. not to mention the people who just skip asking for selling of products and go straight to asking for money. it is interesting to see how much they do make. i know that the people i was in new york with gave away $10 maybe more $ to one guy. if he hits up 5 or 6 people and gets that amount, that is more than some people make in one day. not to mention the other free things they may get like food or clothing, or other items that are handed to them just b/c they ask. this indeed opens my eyes yet again to how blessed thati am and i def appreciate all of the things and all of the people the good Lord has put in my life.

it encourages me more and more to want to help those who need it the most. i cant quite figure out where i want to aim but i do watn to help. i know that doing the 200+ hours of community service with the orginizations im in does help, but i want ME to make a name for myself for helping people. i might have to wait until my wallet can do more talking for me, but i def can see myself trying to start something once i am able to manage it and keep it going. i guess i get this ambition from my mom. always trying to help others that need it the most. but the look on someones face when someone actually takes the time to help them is priceless. if you can impact just one persons life to make a difference you have accomplished something great.

well those are my thought for the day.....

................until next time...............

....McAt....

Thursday, August 6, 2009

well this picture was cute...LoL i am on and off studying for the MCAT...the date i take it is Sept 12. the last time i can and i can not move it back any later b/c that is the last time they offer it this year. i am just ready to get it over. i am having troubl studyin and i just....*sigh*....i just want to be done and in med school and on to the next chapter in my life. but like with all things i must wait and see what the good Lord has planned for me.

2 more days until chicago!!! i am so excited. i cant wait to see my ship and to see "the light"...LoL...

hmmmm....at work...got beeped....gotta run to ER :-/ ....

........until next time.................


****15 min later****

today i have not enjoyed being at work. it has been super busy and i cant sit down for more than 5-10 min. its like the hospital TV shows....doctors running aroung....waiting room full of people...overflow patient care in the outpatient areas...LoL..its been pretty crazy and pretty busy. i guess it is making up for the past few days b/c it has been pretty dead and the census at the hospital was very low. but i guess with every low their is a high...and vise versa...

well i guess ill try to pull out my flash cards and stud :=/ LoL

...............until next time................

...WeDnEsDaY....

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

well all day, i keep thinking that it is thursday...i guess it is because i have had to work everyday for the past few weeks and the days just run together after a while. yes i am tired of being here at work...but i will def enjoy it when i get paid! LoL

this saturday i will be leaving for chicago this saturday!!! i will spend the weekend with my ship and meeting up with some old friends that i have not seen in a while. then on 9th i will head to indianapolis to see "the light"...LoL...i will stay there until the 12th and head to NYC with danny and toya and meet up with reese in bost on on the 16 and head back to kvegas on the 18th. it will be a week full of fun!!! im super excited and can not wait to just see everyone and go out and have fun!!

i have removed those ppl in my life who have caused me so much grief for the past year... and IT FEELS GREAT! to know that i am the sane one and what i have been thinking/doing has not been bad is a good feeling. we have already gotten so much taken care of and i am really enjoying and loveing the reason i am an AKA again. the sisterhood, the service...and everything else that comes with it. it just feels great. i am very excited about this year and all of the things that me and the new girls will do!

we FINALLY get to move into our new place this weekend....only thing is i wont b here! we were supose to move in june 1st...nope....mid july....NOPE....now august first....and i am sleeping on my friends couch with all of my clothes and belongings in my car..yea not a fun time. i really am homeless! again! LoL for the 2nd time this summer! it sux...but i do see th elight and it is almost done and i can finally be in my bed!!!!

i am a little home sick. i miss my friends and some of my family. its always good to go home and visit but since i am going to NYC i wont have time to go home at the end of the summer like i usually do.

i take the MCATS sept 12....i have moved my test back 3 times b/c i study but i just never feel prepaired for it...thisyear i did spend the $1000 on the Kaplan course and i think it was a very good idea. it is helping alot so hopefully i will get the score that i need to get into med school next year. hence why i have not been able to blog as much as i have wanted 2! i have been bust with school (took 3 classes this summer! got an A and 2 B's!!) and i have been working 40+ hours this summer (what is new...LoL gotta get that $!!) and not to mention i have been studying and
reading thru the books i have gotten and just trying to make some things happen.

got the palm pre!!!! its the greatest! its like having a mini computer with you and a phone...and a camera...its great! i would def tell ppl to get one!

but i will be sure to update on the trip!! i may even post some pix!

.....................until next time..............

...NeO sOuL....

Sunday, July 12, 2009

"wants neo soul...hip hop got old...and i already had rock and roll..."

well needless to say last weekend with the light was AMAZING...i mean...i have been sitting and thnking all week of ways to explain what has happened or what has been going on. and to be honest...with words i can not explain it. i mean it is indeed great but all i can do is smile about it...LoL

got to meet the "sands"...saw the swag pad...watched the fireworks and got to look at the stars!...that was only day one...day 2 slept in...went to columbus ohio. got to eat GREAT sushi...and see a movie...that was day 2...day 3 consisted of going to the mall...and going on the best date i have ever gone on. it was at this place called the melting pot and it was so much fun. i honestly have never had that much fun on a date. it was just great...i cant say enough good things about it. and this is completly 2 way! i mean with most instances i spend my time trying to worry and please the other person. but no, he def does his share to make me smile. with calling me in the morning or texting me thruout the day...it def is an eye opener to what i have not been getting the past few years. great conversations and he is a gentleman....i just pray that this last b/c i do not want to let this newness go away. we need to plan another meeting b/c i cant lie i am missing him a little bit...LoL...but like advised i will take each day at at time and just hope that it keeps going in a positive direction :)

Newness by: Musiq Soulchild

Hey girl how you doing

Do you feel like talking?

Or do you need me to call you back

You from round what way and when's your birthday

Or what's your zodiac sign (I'm an Aries)

Well I'm a Virgo so my sign's compatible

What you do for fun cause I don't drink or club

I just like to chill with somebody like you

[Chorus]Everything is cool when love is all brand new

Cause you're learning me and I'm learning you (it's cool)

Cause you're learning me and I'm learning you

[Verse 2]What type of work you do or are you still in school

Or do you have any kids (and if I did what?)

See I'm the type that don't mind

Cause I can understand that things happen sometimes

By the way I 'm wondering are you cool with your family

Cause I would like to meet your parents someday

Maybe we can begin something wonderful and beautiful cause

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Girl it's so cool (yeaaah)

Talking with you (yeaaah)

It gets better every moment I spend with you

Girl you're so nice (nice)And you so fine (so fine)

Plus you're real and that's just what I like

...PeTtY WiNgS...

Saturday, July 4, 2009

maxwell has made a come up and a come back...and i wil have to say that i love it...

introducing pretty wings....a new song on my top songs list:

Time will bring a well end of our trial

One day there'll be no remnants, no trace,

No residual feelings within you

One day you won't remember me.

Your face will be the reason I smile

But I will not see what I cannot have forever

I'll always love you.

I hope you feel the same.

Oh, you played me dirty, your game was so bad

You toyed with my affection

Had to fill out my prescription for the remedy

I had to set you free.

Away from me

To see clearly

The way that love can be

when you are not with me

I had to lead

I had to live

I had to leave

I had to live

If I can't have you

Let love set you free

To fly your pretty wings around.

Pretty wings, your pretty wings, your

Pretty wings. Pretty wings around.

I came wrong you were right

Transformed your love into like.

Baby believe me, I'm sorry I told you lies.

I turned day into night

Sleep till I die a thousand times

Ah, I should've showed you

Better nights, better times

Better days, and I miss you more and more

If I can't have you

Let love set you free

To fly your pretty wings around.

Pretty wings, your pretty wings, your

Pretty wings. Pretty wings around.

Pretty wings, your pretty wings, your

Pretty wings. Pretty wings around.

....HoPeFuL....

Sunday, June 21, 2009

well i have a little flicker of light...

and that is exaclty what i will call it...."the light" inspired by the common song...

this "light", had shed a little warmth on my day. things were a little cloudy, but this "light" is starting to break thru....but there are so many questions that still remain...

is this light fake? i mean if i clear the clouds will i look up to find a lightbuld instead of the sun? and will the light stay? i mean it could retreat to where is came from leaving things cloudy and grey...yet again. i mean i have had some type of similare "light" in the past...and now look what happend....that left more of a mark than i could have ever thought....so whats next?

that is the big question...what is next...do i keep trying to bring the light in, so it can be stronger? or do i let it just run its course and eventually move on? thats what im so worried about right now...im just so ready now. so ready more than ever and i just want that chance. with someone that is worth it and will aprreciate me and what im about...i know i have to be patient but it is hard...and how long am i supose to wait? so many questions and no answers....YET....only time will tell...

...............until next time.............

.....BlAh....

Friday, June 19, 2009

thats how i feel right now

taking summer classes....trying to do yet again what i was doing last summer. studying for the MCATS and trying t find things to do after my life at Truman. i am def READY to move on and go somewhere else.

i just feel stuck sometime b/c i have no plans yet. but i guess i dont have a choice. i just have to keep trying and moving forwerd. thats all i can do. and pray for the best.

i know that i am tired of being in kirksville but i have no where else to go really...LoL...so i dont know what else to yearn for...well i take that back...i cant wait to be able to actually say that im in med school and not that i am applying or trying to take the MCAT...*sigh*...i just want to move in a different direction...

but we will see...and i def will keep you posted! :)

..............until next time..............

...TuEsDaY...

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

well today has been ok

got up...worked out...now i am at work covering for someone...cant wait to get this check!!! it will be so so so so so so so nice

had a good weekend. had a friends come visit. it was really nice. i really enjoyed it...nothing else to say...LoL hope we can meet up again...

work it work...school is school....nothing else to do or say at this point...

.............until next time..............

...YoGa...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

...YoGa...

today was another "year of the first" for me
...i went to my first yoga class....i already feel my body getting sore...LoL
i cant wait to go tomorrow...it was alot of fun!!

..........until next time..............