...StRiKe ThReE...

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

well today was strike three for me
was suppose to hang out with someone last week....it didnt happen...
was suppose to have a lunch date yesterday....it didint happen
and lastly today i was suppose to have lunch/dinner with someone....it didnt happen

i dont know but i give up...
i just try to hard...or i try not enough...and no matter what i still get my feelings hurts
i dont know what else to do...
i know that it is not me...but then what is it...
i just want one...decent person...to do the simple things that i ask....
the SIMPLE THINGS....
like if you say you are going to do something...DO IT
if you say you are gonna call or text...DO IT
and if you are going to say that you are gonna come see me or make a date with me...DO IT
i am just tired of getting my feelings hurt...or getting discouraged.
that is my BIGGEST pet peeve...someone whom i like or hold to high regards dissapoint me
i grew up my WHOLE life being disappointed by the people that "love and care for me"
well this is where i draw the line...i refuse to just let someone decide to do it to me out of habbit or just b/c that is how they are

on a lighter note...it snowed today! the first snow of the winter. yes i hate snow and the cold...but it is a sign that m bday is close and that xmas is even closer. i am so excited to go home and i cant wait. i am even more excited about our new years plans!!! we will all be together and we are all gonna have a good time!!!

well gotta go make dinner...prob turn my phone off for the rest of the night...i have called 4 diff people and 3 ppl didint answer and one person ignored my call :-/...yea def donst make me feel better esp after having yet another date called off today....oh well i will pray about it...take a nice hot shower...cook an amazing dinner...drink some hot coco and go to bed early....tomorrow will be a new...better...warmer day :)

..............until next time...........