Wednesday, September 30, 2015
My quest for love continues...
I feel that yes there is someone out there for me... BUT where is he?
You go through your life dating and meeting people. I am not saying that it is a waste, but how many 1st dates, 1st kisses, breakups must you have to go through until you find someone who "is in love with you"?
I have tried to take something away from each failed relationship that I have had. I feel that with each relationship I give a little more each time only to get hurt that much more each time.
So do you keep giving? Or do you hold back more and more each time? You give and give hoping that the person you are giving too will be the last. But, you give just enough only to lose yet again.
My heart is tired. My emotions are tired. My mind is tired. Most importantly I am tired.
I am tired of the bull sh*t and lies. I am tired of the deceit. I am tired of giving in only to be given up on. I am tired of the failure. I am just tired of being tired.
*sigh* oh well. Not that I dont have enough things going on to keep me occupied. I actually am enjoying the freedom. I am learning to find myself again. I feel that I lost my self when I got lost in love...