Saturday, September 19, 2009
-- Sent from my Palm Pre
....SiGh....
Friday, September 18, 2009
***listening to biggie smalls juicy****
i want to start by saying ....SiGh....
LoL
that is the kind of past few days that i have had...
1. had the MCATS on the 12th....got back on thr 13th to work, left the night of the 13th to leave for new hampshire to take jennifer to school
2.spent the weekend on the east coast spending ALOT of $ with jennifer getting stuff ready for school. i am SOOOO sad that i changed my ticket and did not stay longer so that i could actually see the school and help her. but it is ok. i will go back soon. i just think i miss her and worry about her way to much with her being so far away. but we talk so much now thruout the day that it def puts my mind 2 ease. i am excited and worried about her but i know she will do great and have alot of fun. i just think about all of the things taht i did during my freshman year and WOW...LoL...but i am happy she will finally get to grow as a person and meet new people and best of all she is out of Lubbock! not to say lubbock is bad but i feel that one needs to get away so that you learn and experience the world outside of west texas. i did it and i would nto change it for the world!
3. so jack is in jail...i tried to help but he has a 2 diff problems and he has a bond but will not be set free b/c he has a theft charge and can not be released....so i will try to send him a letter. i know he is just caught up in a web of trouble in Lubbock and wish he would have gone when he had the chance. i know that he is not happy there and he 2 needs to leave and grow by himself and he can only do that when he is not in lubbock. i cant wait until he can finally get away. until them as a friend i will try to help and support him. what are friends for right?
4. it is shaws bday on the 16th....and he is feelin the age...LoL he has called me a zillion times! but i guess he just misses me. i do miss him. he is like family and we def look after eachother. but its ok i know he will make the right choices and will enjoy his bday without me.
5. AKA...LoL...its actually not bad!!! i enjoy it and the Neo's def make this year so much more enjoyable and i found that love that i once had for the orginization. so that is good. i still hate the negative people that are around us but what can you do? just getting ready for the stepshow...after that i will be free! LoL
6. talked to him last night...he said he missed me :) yea i know!!!! i was in such a sock when he said it that i asked what he said...and he happily repeated it! LoL...but i def like him and again im taking each day for what it is. just cant wait to set a date 2 see eachother so that i can look forward to something....
7. work....AHAHAHAHAH! LoL
i do work alot...but when i think of school...bills...jennifer...i just dont want to take the time off b/c i want to be able to provide and pay for things that i need/want. so until i get things taken care of i will be on the grind in the classroom and at work :-/
8. club ball.........i lost the battle. i am now a general memeber. :-/ it was heartbeaking. i was not even given a fair chance to run for a position. but after many attempts i still was not granted my request and shal remain that. i am the founder...CEO...this team is my baby and now i have to setp back and it is so hard for me. but maybe it will be a good thing. now i can focus on other things ...hmmmm just maybe....
with that i just feel that "people" who that are apart of it should have talked to meinsted of making decisions. this week has def made me loook at the people who "come" to me...they say one thing to my face but what do they say when i am away? i am not going to please ppl anymore. i am on my own *ish now and i just am tired of trying to keep the peace. i will now become the a*s hole who will just be on my own agenda...oh well....its time to do me!
these past few days have def been a rollercoaster ride for me. i have never felt so many emotions all at once. i just dont want them to get the better of me. you know how i am about my emotions and my feelings. but its ok. glad to be alive. blessed to be here and to see each day!
last week pastor bill talked about in his sermon things such as "our plans" and the lord messing them up. but are our plans really his plans? we ask him to bless us and grant our wishes but never focus on what he might possible want us to do. and i am trying to figure that out now what he is wanting me to do rather than just what i want to do...each day is a lesson learned.
....................until next time.................
...SuMmEr TiMe...
Sunday, September 13, 2009
i can say that this last summer was def one to put in the books. i can def say that it was not boring and that alot happened. possibly my last "free" summer before i jump into "the real worl" and i can def say that it was a good one. got see alot of old friends as well as make some new ones. got to see some new places as well as some old. i know i could have probably did more but i feel that i did fill my time well with things that i needed and wanted to do. made time for classes and the MCAT, shadowed some doctors and worked quite a bit. but overall i would say it was very nice and alot better than last summer.
took the MCAT yesterday!!!! finally got that done...now i just have to wait and see what comes of it. i feel better about it but its one of those things that you just dont know about. i have taken some test and felt like i did really good on it but then bombed it or didnt do as good as i wanted. but it is ok. i tried to the best of my abilities and willjust have to wait and see. maybe my best isnt enough and if that is the case i will just have to try harder....
i leave tonight to go to STL to meet up with jennifer to take her to school. i am both excited and nervous. she is going to dartmouth and that is really far! i thought i went far to school but she is just really really far. i understand and can see all of the feelings that my family and friends had wheni was getting ready to leave for school b/c i have those same feelings that they had. the only different is me and jennifer def have different personalities and drives and i feel that mine def helped me to make it this far. she is a little more extreme than i, but everyone has to make their own mistakes and learn from them.
other than that....all is well in the land of me....got to watch my preachers sermon today ( 3rd sunday in a row!!! i am doiing good!) all i have left today is to pack, clean up, and chapter. oh yea and get off of work...LoL i am here until about 2 (sometimes 2:30) but its 11 now so i am alomst done! made it thru the MCAT and now all i have to do it make it thru taking jennifer to school and iw ill be good :)
...............until next time....................
....UpS....
Friday, September 4, 2009
so on 8.31.2009 i tried to send a package to indianapolis, in to suprise someone with some gifts and other things that i had bought....well to my suprise it was sent back to me....
why do you ask....
becuase UPS sux at handeling packages the right way. upon my stuffing my box with those strach enviromentally hazardous packing nuts....putting paper...and stuffing it full of the gifts....it made it all the way to the delivery truch TO BE DELIVERED and magically was damaged. you would think that something like this would happen in transit b/c the locations but no...so driver probably dropped it...or placed it under a box that was too heavy for it...breaking some of the contents there for damaging the box....having them send it alll the way back to me...and having me to REPAY to send it all the way back to where i wanted it to be. and why can i not get any cooperation from UPS? b/c its was damaged b/c it was "packed wrong"...ok stuffing a box full of paper and nuts is not packing it wrong...i even did a few test drops to make sure that it would be ok...but no...some driver probably way playing kick ball with it causing it to damage the there for send it back to me. i wish they would have called me or something asking me if i wanted it returned...b/c it was in the city..IN TRANSIT to be deliverd and they stoped and sent it all the way back to me! yes i was mad....and i still am...but you know what its ok...i got it re sent out...packed it with more nuts and paper and food...and hopefully this time it will make it in one piece...the one image i keep having in my head is in the ACE VENTURA movie where at the start of the movie he is just kicking and stepping on a box clearly breaking/damging everything in it...yea i feel that is what happend to my box...LoL...
